Hi. My name is Jordan, and I’m a 37 year old American man with an ongoing condition known as CFS, or Chronic Fatigue Syndrome
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Even though I avoid using the word “chronic” (it’s discouraging) the term CFS/ME comes closest to describing my symptoms, and is a rallying point for some amount of targeted research and innovation. My condition is unique, like many sufferers report. While it comes with plenty of fatigue, it’s an entire bundle of symptoms including
, , and .The trouble is that CFS is a shorthand descriptor for a set of symptoms, all of which which can have a wide range of causes. There are at least 10 theories for what could cause it, and nothing I have discovered so far has narrowed it down far enough.
I named this site “Operation Fog Free”, not because the fog is the only symptom I care about. But if only one symptom could vanish in a puff of smoke, I would nominate that one, at his has been the most destructive to my ability to function. Even simple life planning is very hard without clarity, and being in public highlights a strange feeling of depersonalization where I feel disconnected like I’m in a boring dream. Spooky stuff, and unlike anxiety, there is nothing I’ve found to even provide temporary relief from it.
But
, , and don’t lag too far behind in severity. I would gladly accept relief from any of themI’m creating this living document not for sympathy but in hopes somebody reading this can help either directly or indirectly.
Are these all “new”? Not exactly. My health journals have shown me some of these symptoms have existed for me in varying degrees, sometimes with different names over the last 10 years. They made life difficult, but I was still able to function professionally and personally through it all, while still wiping out occasionally.
This changed in March of 2020, after
. Easy things became hard, hard things became almost impossible. Symptoms became less intermittent than they were in the past. After losing my job in October, I realized this could not go on this way and I decided to make health a priority.I spent most of 2021 consulting with various integrative health and functional medicine docs, as my allopathic doctors could not find anything beyond D and B12 deficiencies.
I tried several supplement regimens, and took alot of recommended standard and nonstandard tests and bloodwork. There were some promising findings, but sadly none of the regimens to address them worked.
The paradox of brain fog is- to stay proactive in addressing it takes cognitive power you don’t have, kind of the way it takes vision to look for your eyeglasses. I feel I’m running out of steam, so every bit of help and encouragement is welcome, and I’m willing to try anything with any logic behind it.
If you have ever suffered from an illness with an unknown cause or treatment, you might know how isolating it is. It’s an extremely unfair fight, akin to swinging at a ghost
At this point, my hope is entirely manufactured, when I even have the ability to do so. But I feel there are many things I’ve yet to try, and I’m optimistic when I solve one of these things, I’m likely to see improvement or resolution in multiple symptoms.
What I would like the most is to find a practitioner who has who has helped enough people solve CFS and/or brain fog to call it a specialty. This would help me to outsource some of my missing brainpower, and keep moving forward.
If you know a practitioner with a great record for helping people like me, or are that person, please reach out here. In the interest of being concise, I highlighted certain terms where you can read details using tooltips, and also created a separate FAQ page for some common questions practitioners have asked.
However, I’m receptive to advice from anyone. If you are just a civilian who notices something I may have missed, I would still appreciate the advice. Drop a comment in the Suggestion Box.
On most medical internet forums, people appear to ask questions in a period of struggle, vanish either when they stop fighting, or when they get better. So you’re left reading about the acute period of action and struggle, and not the happy ending, if there is one. It doesn’t make for a very inspiring ratio.
So when I overcome this, the website will remain a monument to my struggle and victory even after I achieve it. Getting better is just the beginning of my responsibility. I will have a great karmic debt to lift others in the same predicament. Maybe it will define a future life path, maybe not, but at a minimum, I plan to help others find hope and relief from similar in some form for the remainder of my life.
Thank you for reading. Whether or not you are able to help, I appreciate it.
Tests and Bloodwork
8/21 Homocysteine 9.0 mcmol/L, Methylmalonic Acid, Serum (MMA) 128 nmol/L
7/21 Thyroid & Renal Panel, Ferritin, CBC, B12/Folate, Magnesium
1/21 Comprehensive Bloodwork
4/21 GI Map (+ Additional individual tests below)
- Negatives: CMV (igg/igm), LYME DISEASE AB, TOTAL W/REFL WB (IGG, IGM), EBV (early antigen), Saliva Cortisol test normal
- Positives: HHV-6 (iGG 1:40), HSV-1 (5.96H)
5/21 Doctor’s Data Fatty Acids Test
9/21 OptimalDX Profile of Bloodwork 10/11/21 Additional: Estradiol 5.2 pg/ml
12/21 Labcorp Blood Draw
Things I've Tried (Worked)
Black Seed Oil (Nigella Sativa)- Did not work for morning anxiety, but good for night time anxiety, mild sense of well being, and seems to make my body feel less inflamed too.
Lavender (for anxiety)- Was a life saver when having panic
Ashwagandha- Good for anxiety, but makes me demotivated
Kratom (For energy, 2019, haven't tried in a while)
Fasoracetam- Stimulant. Best brain fog buster I have found thusfar
Clonezapam/Klonapin- Helps with both sleep and anxiety. Love it, but have seen tolerance grow quickly and don't want to lose it as a red button.
Things I've Tried (Neutral/Not Sure/Didn't Work)
Intense exercise: Worked out 3X a week (lifting) from June 2019 until January 2020. Best physical shape of my life but It had no significant impact on energy or mood.
Multivitamins (Rainbow Light Mens)
B12 shots/supplements- Tend toward deficiency, but got my levels up using supplement to no effect
Vitamin D3 supplements- Tend to be deficient but even after getting it up to 60s with 10K daily, no major difference
Fish Oil/High SHA/EPA supplements
Alpha GPC
Blood Type B Diet
Gluten Free Diet
SAM-E
NAC
St John’s Wort
SSRIs(many), Buproprion
Magnesium
Methylene Blue (4-8mg)
6 week GI antiparasite/dysbiosis regimen of (all Biotics products) ADP Emulsified Oregano, Dysbiocide, and Saccharomyces boulardii. No major effects but bowel movements were smoother, less gas
Paleo-vegan (Pegan) diet hybrid (1.5 months)
Topical Testosterone cream
Malabsorption Regimen- Oxbile, NTFactor Energylipids, Cod Liver Oil
Panax Ginseng leaf used to give a focus lift, but stopped working very well in 2020.
High Dose Niacin, didn’t take regularly or for long but experimented briefly with up to 500. I flushed with everything above 50mg, and 500 was bad (felt burning sensations on skin for over a day after)
Turmeric/Curcumin (brain health version, as well as raw powder)
Lithium Orotate- Took all amounts from 1-5mg. 4-5mg is a decent anxiety buster but creates a mild burning sensation in my skull and lingers too long to qualify as mainstay
Doxepin- Took for sleep. Seems to make later sleep better, but harder to fall asleep (2-3 hours). About a draw. Seeking alternatives
Things I've Tried (Negative Impact)
Aniracetam
Armodafinil- seemed to make me jittery without giving me energy.
Mucuna Extract- Sedative/depressant
Bacopa- somewhat calming but irritable
Buspar- Got very nauseous
Effexor- Caused so much anxiety even at low-ish dose I needed to take daily benzos
Lions Mane- Have taken it in various forms, and don't like how I feel on it
Inositol- Standard 500mg dose seemed to make me very nauseous.
COQ10 (2 days)
Alpha Lipoic Acid (1 day)
Pregnenolone- Seemed to make me irritable/emotional
DHEA- See above
Doxylamine- Had the worst sleep when I took 25mg.